Oh what a journey this life takes us on!
Amidst this massive loss, grief + pain, I learnt how I could mask it and “carry on”.
But I also learnt *the hard way* how much this would create enormous separation from my truth, my ability to know, trust and back myself… and stole from me the beautiful wisdom my body actually holds for me.
My “Mask” pictures inside this blog piece were taken from the weeks of my greatest suffering. It was a great mask wasn’t it?
I was in a go-go-go lifestyle, keeping busy, loving my job + high in “positivity” mode. To save myself from the enormity of the heartbreak + pain. My life was ripped apart.
I was moving so fast, I couldn’t feel.
I was so overwhelmed with shock, devastation + loss, that I didn’t know how to process it, how to think for myself or how I be with myself.
As an athlete we get REALLY GOOD at shutting off to pain. And pushing through.
𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙖𝙨 𝙬𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙣 𝙢𝙤𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙞𝙣 𝙖 “𝙈𝙖𝙣’𝙨 𝙒𝙤𝙧𝙡𝙙” 𝙬𝙚’𝙫𝙚 𝘼𝙇𝙇 𝙗𝙚𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙖𝙘𝙘𝙪𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙤𝙣𝙜, 𝙙𝙚𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙚𝙙, 𝙛𝙤𝙘𝙪𝙨𝙨𝙚𝙙 + 𝙝𝙞𝙜𝙝 𝙖𝙘𝙝𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙙.
❌ HOLD UP! ❌ Don’t get me wrong!
I LOVE a woman who holds all these traits!
I am that woman. No doubt part of you is this same woman too.
But it’s our dark looming shadow, preventing our fullest blooming, beauty + brilliance, if we cannot integrate being able to FEEL, able to BE with OURSELVES, able to TUNE IN to our HEART + able to intuitively KNOW ALL OF OUR SELVES… to steer our life with depth, truth, feminine certainty + self assurance.
I was SO disconnected from not just feeling,
But from my body – my skin + health declined again rapidly
But I kept go-go-going + running.
Running on adrenaline
“Commitments” to others
Reading a million “how to” books to distract
Trying to “fix it” + grow with toxic positivity
To bypass it all.
My heart was completely closed down + wounded.
And so I disassociated from any ability to trust ANY parts of myself.
I saw life through pretty dark eyes for quite a while, but showed up in a ridiculous false bravado, shining happy + racing and winning State level events.
I couldn’t see myself or feel myself for all the smoke + mirrors I’d created to protect, to survive, to push through it.
But I was coded + programmed to keep going. This was my “safety” mechanism.
This was, of course, a means to an end.
Our darkest hours, facing our shadows, is the way to experience our light.
This is the path ahead for each of us if we desire a life full of love, respect, devotion + lightness.
Only through witnessing, LOVING + integrating these part of ourselves can we BE bright, shining + FULL of life force energy.
To wholeheartedly give.
And to receive at great depths ♥️
In embracing my shadows, I became an entirely new and incredible woman inside my relationships, business + spiritual connection.
Inside our SHINE 6 week portal, I hold the guiding light for you to alchemise your light + dark.
Because our shadows, codes, beliefs + wounds are just as much a part of us as our light.
They too deserve to be HEARD, SEEN + LOVED just as much as our light or positive (ie. “socially accepted”) side 🌚🌝
Let me show you the way.
So you can become the self empowered, magical woman that you were born to be.
If you’re ready to step into your energy,
I want this for you too 💯
If you want to evoke + engage your fullest SHINE,
If you’re new to my space and would like to learn more about connecting to the intelligence, technology and innate wisdom that lies within your body, you can join me at @iam.sarahmc on Instagram
I also have a new podcast Science + Woo with Sarah McLachlan coming in May 2022 – you can find more of my magic for the world on Apple Podcasts + Spotify soon!
Sending you loads of love,
Sarah McLachlan x
~ Body Wisdom Activation Leader ~
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